Leaving

People come and people go, often taking their empty promises along with them. It leaves you feeling empty, and hollow. How can someone just disappear like that? Sad fact, but life still goes on anyway. It's so important to be practical when it comes to guarding your feelings. And I'm talking about everyone and anyone. A friend. A lover. Anyone who means anything to you. You let people in, and the next thing you know they are gone. Anyway, God brings people in and removes them for a reason. It's always comforting to know that anything that happens has a purpose, and life has already been written out by His terms. Anyhow, I thank all the people who have been in, and who have made me who I am today. Memories will always stay golden.

Complacency

Received all my prelim2 results today and feeling really happy with it. All by God I really thank Him for being my strength and solace through it all. But I'm really afraid I'll slacken after this. This is not even the real battle sighhh somebody wake me up from this marshmallow and cotton candy dreamland. I will fight till the end, and I really pray all my disheartened friends will keep their chin up and give it their all. 2months and EVERYTHING will be over!!

I. Will. Not. Be. Complacent.

Anything

Anything, for just one last race.

Wander

21 September 2012 was spent as an enchanting day in the woods with my beautiful girls (:

Had a wonderful, lovely time. I luv you guys to bits and pieces. And the day ended off perfect with a hearty Botak Jones meal, and sending sweet texts to Ger to get well soon haha the poor thing was so cute with her either *extremely high helium voice* or her extremely low bass voice we couldn't stop laughing. That was me exactly 1year6mths back after Justin's concert haha.

Went to Ben's house with Ruiying Dawn and Natalie today.. without Ben haha ironic. Since I'm allowing myself to rest till Monday, I read my book, listened to music and played Bridge while the rest of them mugged. Went home to a family gathering, and ate grandma's delish cooking as well as my favourite mooncakes!!! And Daddy just left for Paris on business trip. Hope he finds nice and beautiful things for me in the City of Love (: Wish him journey mercy and may God be protecting him.

Excited

Prelim 2s are going to be over, and me and my friends are like planning so many exciting things for the weekend already yes I'm very excited and I hope to take good shots (:

Waiting for my brother to finish his dinner and I want to go downstairs to swim. It's been 3 looong weeks and I feel downright unhealthy. Time to change that and burnnnnnnn. Exams are just bringing out the worst, causing moodiness, stress, an accumulation of fats. Oh, it's pretty funny how not a single day goes without hearing someone say 'i can't wait for Os to be over'. There's just too much to look forward to! I'm gonna give myself a break after the last paper this week and have fun with my girls, before starting Os preparation again (:








"It's been so long, it's almost like you were fiction. All those happy times, long gone, seem like a distant fairy tale"

Determination

The days are just passing by and I'm getting more and more numb and accustomed to exams. Prelim2s are just mad and I think I might get even worse results than prelim1. It's ok I commit it all to God.

Anyway, I bought some nice papers to brighten my mood and filled them with bible quotes that help spur me on and know that I'm never alone. I'm going to paste them on my study wall so Everytime I feel like dying all I have to do is look up :) and thoughts of Genting, the States, and HK are rly helpful in brightening my mood but really distract me at times. It's ok there's so much to look forward to after Os and that's what's gonna drive me to be determined.

Don't

When I want to forget something, very badly, I shouldn't talk about it. I shouldn't share it; not even with my closest friends, family, or even a personal diary.

If I need to let out, and sharing it has a therapeutic effect, then it's fine. But if it's useless and I want to just forget it, then keep in mind. Just don't talk about it. Not anywhere. The more you share, the more it's just going to linger. I shouldn't think about it too, but thoughts are one of the toughest thing to control. Or maybe I just haven't tried hard enough.

September

Had awesome fun at Leila's on Monday, celebrating her birthday, and it was Jiamin's birthday too :) went crazy in her condo's cool karaoke cum movie room and we sneaked our snacks and pizza in haha it was funny. Watched 27 Dresses, such a sweet rom-com I love it. I'd pick rom-coms over horror movies anytime anyday in a millisecond but I always end up watching horror thanks to my classmates' preferences. It's ok one day I'll call my girls up and we'll have a rom-com movie marathon without those sadists. Had fun singing oldies which I loveeeee, and we were going so mad that people outside studying could hear us. Facetimed Chanhong before I left and she showed us her hotel.

Spent that night watching A Walk To Remember till 3am, and it's one of the sweetest movies ever. The storyline is nearly identical to Keith, which I went crazy over cus it starred the young Jesse McCartney, but A Walk To Remember came out before that I think and the way they spun the tale was so much sweeter and more engaging I loved it :') even Jesse's handsome face couldn't save it.

Ended up waking at 1pm the next day and I was so frustrated cus I set my alarm at 9am to do work, but as usual, slept past it. Had tuition at night, and Ms lee is really very cute and funny haha. Me, Renee and Sermin scared ourselves stupid with ghost stories, and when we walked out of the centre there was this eerie violin playing and we got so scared but it's really so stupid I can't stand it haha. It's ok my God protects me I have no fear.

To punish myself for waking up late, made my parents wake me up before they went to work so yep I was forced out of bed by 7am today. Under no circumstances. Probably the first time in my life. Tidied up an Amath p2 and i better get started on Chem soon. I really can't wait for all these to be over. 3 MORE MONTHS I CAN DO THIS.

Teachers' Day

On the day of English Prelim2, i felt really empowered thanks to my brothers and sisters in christ and i felt good sharing what i had to share. I thank God for them. Had an AWESOME time with 403 after our Paper, played like crazy with the 5 of them, and I felt so happy it's been so long since we had fun together like that. Went GROCERY SHOPPING at lot1 with 403 later to buy food for class picnic, and had the best time making sandwiches, pasta salad and chilling at yingsuan's. Really had a lot of fun it's been quite some time since I felt that happy and relaxed :)

Teachers' day the next day didn't go as wonderful as I hoped it would, but it's ok we had a fun time eating and parts of the concert were really entertaining.

Met Dawn, Ruiying, Natalie, Andy and Ben after that and walked down memory lane, chilling at our old hangout spot. I really miss those times. And ACS boys are just so.. Proper haha I can't stand it. Never dare to make a fool out of themselves I swear. Played all our favourite games and really felt like a kid again. Had fun making videos by the piano in the evening haha it's seriously damnnn cute!! Hope Natalie mails the vids to us soon haha.